I'm not usually care about dreams...you know ?, ...(with the exception of Day Dream...which I sometimes consider them as Motivation or Encouragement...which is good :) )...
OK, back to those night dreams...which I believe I have too many...the funny thing is the one that I can remember, it always turn out to be just a dream
...but the one I couldn't remember or the one that seems like one's routine life or one's ordinary event which I usually forget about it as soon as I got off the bed...such dreams, if I had, always...well, let just say 99% of them...will be the event I'll face in the future
strange, ha ?...you have no need to believe this...and sometimes I don't wanna believe it either
The feeling of your life being controlled by someone or something or the fact that you might actually living in the Matrix...scare me
But I remember reading some articles about people who can see events from their future (come on, don't laugh...:P)...'coz something about the Brain frequency, or something like that...anyway...I believe I'm not the only one who has this 'Vision'
...
Back to my yesterday's life, shall we ?
:P
Yesterday (it's the 29th when I wrote this) I and mom stayed in the apartment...it's too (damn) cold to go outside
and all I've done is trying to finish PKG815 reading material...which was proved impossible, so I went to bed around 4 AM
That's when this 'dream' come to me...you know what ?...it was the first time since I've moved here, that I slept through the night without any waking up
In th dream, One of my old friends came to visit me at my house in Bangkok..., so I asked my mom and dad for the premission to go out somewhere with him.
Then (I think) we went to a temple...a very old and vacant temple...where we talked and talked and talked...and I felt so happy...like finally I met a person that I can be myself when I am with...again
Let's me clarify this 'feeling' a minute, it's not the feeling between the lovers, as you might think...it's more like when I was with Pa, Off, P'Ae, or Sai... close friends
It's getting dark, so we headed back home..., but then I remembered I left somtething behind, he offered to get that for me...and I told him I'll be waitting here...I remembered turning around to see what the place looks like...
Then he said...I won't be long, I'll be back soon...just wait here...
...
that's when my dearest mom woke me up...:) (smile sadly)
...
I don't know why I felt so sad and empty...probably because I just realized that I'm all alone again...that person - that old friend - disappeared
...
my mom's theory is I ate too much, slept too little...and we just talked about visiting the temple the coming weekend...well, she may be right :(
..., or probably because I missed my friends too much...after all, all the person I love...all my close friends...all my familiar places and faces...are in Thailand (or in Edmonton)
...
...
But I also hopeful...that one day...soon... he'll be back...I don't know who he is or what he looks like..., but I'll know once I met him...and I'll tell him he's been missed
